Promises.
Growing up, I was the kind of kid that made empty promises. I always promised to do things that I knew I wouldn’t do. However, now that I’ve grown up, I feel that promises I make, must be performed or there will be consequences whether from the person I made the promise to, or consequences from myself. I beat myself up every time I break a promise and it kills me inside to know that I’m fucking up regardless how small the promise. I’ve been very reliable these past few years and I don’t lie to anyone, but these past few weeks have been a blur and I can’t seem to get a grip on things. I say one thing, then do another, and I can’t seem to control it. I’ve become far too careless and I think it’s time to step things up. Regardless how small of a promise, I swear I will do it. If I say I’m going to do something, I’m going to do it. Whether big or small, each promise means the same for me. How can I let people trust me, when I can’t even keep the simplest of promises. So it’s time to step my game up and prove I’m still the reliable person I once was.
